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A Vulnerable Post on Anxiety

Stephen took this picture of me when we visited the beach in Lincoln’s hometown and it makes me smile. I rarely take photos of just me and there’s a reason for that. Many of you might not know that for years I’ve struggled with anxiety and self-doubt. It’s not something I’ve talked much about because it’s been such a long journey of growth and trying to heal from things of my past.


Honestly, as an introvert it can be hard to open up and let people in, especially when you’ve been wounded or traumatized in the past. Being on YouTube has been an incredible journey for me because in many ways it has helped me to let people “see” me more when for so long I wanted to stay in the shadows. It’s been overwhelmingly profound to see the love y’all have poured over our family when for so long I’ve honestly wrestled with feelings of not being good enough, or interesting enough, not extroverted enough, or pretty enough, not worthy of love enough.


My journey lately has been a beautiful one of recognizing how to accept who God has made me to be and that He thinks I am beautiful just the way he has knit me together. It doesn’t matter when others don’t understand or appreciate me and even betray me because I know that I am understood and loved by the one who created everything. I know he is grieved when I let those lies have a place in my heart because he cherishes me as his daughter that he made in his own image. I smile when I look at this picture of me on such a peaceful and happy day because it’s a reminder of the freedom and joy I have in Christ and that I am forever loved by him.


So if you struggle with anxiety or feelings of self-doubt, know that you are loved and cherished just the way you are. God did not make mistakes when he made you. You are beautiful and loved. ❤️



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Zoe Geyer
Zoe Geyer
Apr 10, 2023

I need help with something I can't handel.it anymore I have really really bad sever anxiety that whenever I get angry then I hit myself until I have bruises it's hard on me I have some cool gadgets but when I get angry I forget I have them because I'm so focused on letting my anger out that I forget that they r in a box I have been trying to practice controlling my anger since I'm autistic too but I get angry easily I thought u guys could give me advice on what I should do to help bring my anxiety down alot I did see a counselor for help but can't since I got in a bad accide…


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nightengale829
Mar 30, 2021

I heard about you from Squirmy and Grubbs. Your family is the family I wish I could of raised. Your family is so easy to love. Thank you for just being you.

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gg
Jan 30, 2020

I've been following your family on YouTube (and then Instagram) for a solid six months now but only now I found out about this blog. Just wanted to say that I'm a 19 years old who's been struggling with general anxiety disorder and minor depression for more than half of her life and this post just gives me hope it's gonna get better one day. Lately I'm going through a hard time recently as I moved to another country and started uni and your videos are literally been one of the few things that made me genuinely smile. Thank you for sharing your story <3

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Rica Casuga
Rica Casuga
Nov 25, 2019

God bless you Millers! Thank you for letting us in in your little sweet home. ❤️

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sunnyflower
Nov 22, 2019

We really are fearfully and wonderfully made by God. Your experience with being an introvert really resonates with mine. Being in high school, I’m always unnecessarily conscious about my self image, how I act etc. This really has added a weight on my shoulders. Watching your vlogs reminds me of how much God loves every one of us and instead of looking upon people’s reactions/ thoughts about myself, I should look more often towards my creator :) God bless !! 💓

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